I won't hold anything back
And I won't hold anything in
Feel like I know where this is going
And I know how it ends
But I'm still willing to begin.

--"Most of Me" by Mandy Moore



So the first semester ends. It's been happy. And I miss someone, although I really shouldn't, because in the words of my blockmate Kat, "he's no longer vacant."

Anyway, this must be the end of this account, although I may make a new one. I've been in a rut, since my brain is programmed with laws, the constitution and case readings...which I'll be reading again once in a while.

I learned a lot of things in my new university. I'm still studying Law. I will never give up. I have my reasons for doing so. And another because of what a classmate had said once in our Introduction to Law class.

And that, I must say, was the day I also fell in love with that classmate.

He really is something.

However, I am not here to discuss my lovelorn state. Because apart from that, LIFE IS DEFINITELY PEACHY.

I think I am moving on. I finally accepted that the person I loved for nearly five years isn't going to love me back. And a person who I've shared a mutual passion for isn't thinking of progressing at all. I don't need these large scale productions anymore. I see my friends. I can make plans to have coffee with them. I study hard, and enjoy group review sessions with my blockmates. There are older people who I look up to and talk about things that go round in this world. My biggest lovelife are my friends.

It's pretty simple. If you are my friend, I love you. Really love you.

It's a wild hope. Everything will be all right.

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ADDENDUM.

New account is:

~stellarwordsmith

Please add me. Even if it's still empty.